Sunday, September 04, 2005

I will try to never do it again.

I have just deleted three of my posts.
I am so tired and sad and annoyed and pissed that I just don’t want to do it any more. My blog was originally made because I needed a place to speak. It didn’t matter to me if people heard. I had spent my whole life basically as an unheard individual and never imagined that for some odd reason people would read this blog.
I love it but I swear right now I will do my damndest to never rant again.
I will rant away and make sure that I delete it before it ever hits the web. I will feel a little better and none of the people who think differently from me will piss on me about how I have totally offended them, even though I have never met them and never pointed a single finger at them.
Ranting is usually a phenomenon (I spelt that right the first time) that happens when we are emotional and upset. Terribly sorry if the idea that I can get emotional and upset seems to bother others. I have been told that I don’t have my head on straight, that I am misinformed (reading the same newspapers as them), and that I am totally wrong. Well I can be what I want. The main thing is that I am not harming anyone with my thoughts but those of you who shit on me really hurt me.
I miss my sister so much now it hurts. I knew that I could always talk to her and she would never judge me for having a feeling. She would never say that me having an emotion towards something was wrong. She and I could talk to each other and we would feel better for it, understand each other better and respect one another for our thoughts. We would never tell each other that we were wrong and that our entire way of thinking was wrong.
It is my sister’s birthday tomorrow and I really want her back.
I cried all the way through ‘Sound of Music’ and ‘Man on Fire’.
If there is one thing that I ask of you all it is please, please, please,
Get your children their meningitis shots.

I wrote a blog about Li coming back yesterday. Cant get the pictures to load for some reason. If I can I will post it with no changes. I wrote it when I was happy. I want to feel that way again.
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