Tuesday, July 05, 2005

I had the WEIRDEST dream last night.

I dreamed that I had just stepped out of the Save-On-Foods in my home town, didn't have any shopping bags though. JiXiang was hanging off of me being an annoying little toddler, when I heard my name being called.
I turned and there was Michael.
I totally can not remember the guys last name. The strangest thing is he was never a friend, only an acquaintance.
Michael was a guy from my high school. I remember that he was smart, very swavey sexy, and that he was colour blind. I have no idea why I know that strange piece of information. He really was only a friendly acquaintance. I met him only once outside of school at a math study group at someone's house whom I totally can not remember.
We were talking about, actually nothing. I think about me and Japan, and I remember introducing JiXiang to him. She instantly turned into a perfect little girl.
Now as a very strange thing I remember making her bow and say hello just like Japanese mothers do. I have no idea why.
I woke up with a very confused look on my face. I laid there going, WTF!
I never went to my 10 year grad reunion. Never wanted to and I was in Japan already. I realized last night that my 15 year reunion is coming next year.
FIFTEEN!!!!!!
My god but time flies!!
Junior high school was never overly fun for me. I was easily influenced by many people and being pulled around from the good group to the bad. I never fit into either.
Senior High school was better. I started really coming into myself. I didn't have friends in the way that I hear so many people talking about their high school friends. I had a group that I hung out with but we never did anything after school together and I have NO idea where any of them are right now. My best friend at that time lived on the other side of the freeway, so she went to a different school. My real friends were all of my horse related friends.
I did grass hockey for a few years but quit when I decided that I would rather concentrate on my horses after school in grade 12 than do an after school sport. I remember being ridiculed for my love of my horses at our end of the year grass hockey dinner. I remember my very first thought being 'you assholes!' And realizing right there I actually didnt like any of them.

When I think really hard there was not a single person form school that I can call a friend. Not in the REAL meaning of a friend.
I never wanted to be with the jock girls because I wanted to ride horses.
I totally despised the supposed IN CROWD girls. I thought they were all very stupid and total snobs. Most of them now are even ugly. When I worked at the bar as the cover charge girl I happily took the money from these girls who would bounce in pretending I was their best friend in the whole world.
I hung out with a group that could easily be classified as the bible group. I really liked Tera but lost touch with her when she went to Mexico for a year on exchange. I never went to church and they all tried to convert me, I just hung with them because they were the realest ones there. Lori brought me to bible study once but the moron teacher said that only Christians can be your true friends so that was the last bible study for me.
I had beautiful long hair but did nothing with it. My clothes were all blaaa and I never really noticed. I was saving money for the thousand dollar dressage saddle and begging for a matching bridle. Calvin Klein jeans were not on my list.
For my high school grad dance I went with some friends instead of dates and my mother made me dress up really well for the first time. I wore a blue satin shimmer knee length dress that actually accentuated my tits and ass. My hair was done professionally all up and fancy. I wore gold accents and looked good, felt weird. People were all shocked when they saw me and some thought that I was really rich but never knew. Bunch of guys that never talked to me asked me to dance.
The whole experience made me dislike more of them that much more and after grad I headed out in my own direction and never talked to any of them ever again. I would see the odd one at the super market but never struck up a conversation past a hello.
I think Michael was in my dream because he never belonged to any of the crowds and was an all around nice guy.
I now wonder what happened to him. He is probably a doctor or lawyer. I remember him being really smart and very nice.
Strange.
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